Good to see some fellow RAWKites feeling alot better lately. I never seem to post when I'm feeling good, only when I'm shit! This week has been strange, went to Huddersfield to watch Carlisle (The team I support for those that didn't know) in the Johnstone's Paint Northern Final, which we held off to a heroic 3-0 defeat (after winning the 1st leg 4-0) so it was enough to get to Wembley, which was amazing. Then after, I stayed in Huddersfield with two of my best mates that I barely see nowadays, and we went to the Casino after the match, and I walked out a tidy £100 up. Despite these, I just felt awful. It's only really come over me this week, too. It's almost like the feeling of butterflies that you get with excitement/love, in a sense of how it feels inside, but it feels much darker, and miserable. I was delighted that Carlisle had won, but I still felt this horrible feeling inside, that I haven't felt for about two years. I've been depressed and that all my life, but this overwhelming feeling of sadness only happens every so often. It is hard to explain, perhaps there are others on here that can relate though? I'm down about unemployment and lack of money etc, I have been for the past 6 months now. I just sat in my room, staring at the floor for about an hour, tears coming from my eyes for no reason at all, I wasn't crying as such, but the tears were coming out. I have no idea what it was that just suddenly made me so down this week.