Struggling this year. I took my 9 year old lad the semi on Saturday. In a bad way half an hour before kick off and at the end. Thank god he knows and kept grabbing me as I cried! It had been a bad week leading up to it with the nightmares and tears all week. Come Monday, I felt a bit better, then yesterday! I posted in the "fans attitudes " section about last night but don't know how to move it.
Basically ( i live down south now. Moved here in 1990 for work) i run me 6 yr olds footy team. Club secretary and his wife, who are in their fifties, are Chelsea fans. For a bit of a laugh, I put on me Barca trackie for the meeting. I got called a Scouse wanker, which you can take but then he said, "are we going to have to move any more kick offs for you lot, it's been 23 years get over it." As I was trying to tell him where to go and why, his wife says to another woman ," I don't know why they get so sad, after all they killed their own fans that day," I was furious and started on her before I walked out in case I did something I'd regret! I mean she said it with a little grin on her face as if she was saying something I'd be embaressed about!!!
Apart from the anger and sacking off the club, it's really hit me for six. Anyone that knows me knows I've struggled for the years since I got out of Pen3. I just start to wonder what's the fucking point. These are supposedly grown adults. Not even somewhere like a match where you deal with it. But a football meeting for a kids club!
I have always felt guilty that I'm still here to have kids and a life and they're not. I'm just getting to the point where I can't take this any more
Sadly these peoples minds were made up years ago and nothing will change it, minor I know but similar with Suarez case, just no point in pointing them towards the facts.
These people are morons, can't see past what really in the scheme of things of minor football rivalries. They think that by making comments like that, that are in some weird way in their minds supporting their clubs.
Don't get me wrong in makes me boil inside and on few occasion have had to be stopped from hitting out at these morons, they somehow think they've got one up you and your team?
If you can't put football rivalries to one side and understand that the deaths of 96 innocent men, women and children then morons isn't really a strong enough word.
They proved what a bunch of plastic fucking idiots they were at their semi final with Spurs, shame the FA are so weak and don't hand out punishment to the clubs and supporters with away fan bans and fines that actually hurt the club. But the people who died were mainly English and white, I wonder what the situation would of been if most of the victims were black. I don't say that in any racist way or to be controversial but think the songs would of been stamped out and the bigots shown for what they are, instead of it being ignored. Think the super politically correct FA would of come down on them with a ton of bricks.
At the end of the day the FA have allowed filth and bile to be song on the terraces for 20 odd years now about Hillsborough, they are not going to do anything. Even the Man Utd players singing We've won it once more than Nottingham Forrest without killing anyone, went by without a word said in the media. Imagine the Liverpool team singing We won it 5 times without crashing our plane, we won it 5 times. There would of been a shit storm that still would be carrying on today.
We all know the FA our just a bunch of useless c*nts and it's going to just carry on. Time one of the proper newspapers, probably The Times, should point it out and make a real fuss over it.
I know we still have idiots who go on about Munich, fact is most Man U, it means nothing to them, weren't alive when it happened and know fuck all about it really, not sure where I going with that?
The fuck wits who sing about Hillsborough though, its time it was stamped out but you can't educate shit.
Fully understand your anger over what was said, did well not to batter her. You proved you were the better person.
Guilt is something I've always struggled with, like yourself, but anger is still the biggest emotion I feel about Hillsborough and until we have some sort of justice, starting with the terrace bigotry that goes unpunished, through to those responsible putting their hands up and saying yes we got it badly wrong, from not stop fans entering the tunnel to the smear campaign and cover up afterwards.
Maybe one day we'll get it, it long over due.
Sorry for going on but I can't talk about it, so writing it helps get some of it out of my system. Last Christmas, I bought all my family Ann Williams book and Phil Scrattons I think it was because it was the only way I could show them how much it affected me. Mum apologized after reading them cause she had no idea how bad it was, she didn't need to, when I have spoken about the day, its usually to my Mum but I never get very far cause its a scab I can't allow myself to pick at to much.
JFT96 and all of Hillsboroughs victims now! YNWA