I know from personal experience that you can be in the depths of despair but when talking to other people, you put on a mask and smile and laugh. However, the minute they leave the mask slips and the emptiness and desperation kicks back in. My heart goes out to his family. Maybe people will be a little more understanding towards Stan Collymore now. You may not like him, but he has his own demons to face aswell. I just wish Gary Speed had been able to win his own personal battle.