Hard not to be frustrated mate. I know we've made progress but we're very close and yesterday was hard to take.
Look, this is an endless circle trying to predict these things but I just think they will win one of them. As previously stated they haven't been beaten in ages. I have them finishing on 75/6. Losing one, drawing one and winning one of their big away games and beating the rest.
I actually think we have fucked ourselves to be honest. Yesterday was unforgivable at this stage in the season. We may still make it but my god we have made a meal of it so far.
Won our last 4 and I believe we'll make it but I genuinely don't trust us to do that given the state of the squad.
If we don't make the top 4 this season i'll have a really fucking hard time motivating myself to do a 200 mile round trip to every home game next season. I'll still do it like becuase it gets me out the house, but I'm a miserable c*nt as it is, let alone when I'm expecting failure before the season even starts. When your team win you'd like to think you're working towards something, and earlier this season when we were winning it felt as though we were looking at a title challenge. For that to then turn into a top 4 finish would be ok. Now, we've managed to fuck up to a point where we're in a neck and neck battle going down the final stretch it's just so fustrating. January 2nd we were 2nd, 5 points behind Chelsea.
If we miss out on the top 4, I think I'll be at the point where winning in September - January will just feel joyless to me now. Because I'll just fear they'll fucking throw it all away. That's the DNA of this team. Get into a good situation, and then fuck it all up. Last season in the Europa final. The League final against City. 13/14 at home to Chelsea. 14/15 at home to United. The league cup semi final this season against Southampton. This season we could look back at Palace who knows, but it makes getting enthusiastic so fucking hard when the chances are it'll all be a waste of time come May. I'll never forget the line in the media when we lost to United in 14/15 "just as the door to the champions league opened, Liverpool slammed the door shut on themselves".
If we don't make the top 4 this season I'd like to see massive changes in the summer. This continual failure on all levels cannot continue.
I'll reserve utter meltdown until the season finishes because I still have hope we can do it, but I think we'll need United to fuck up, because for the life of me, I just can't see us getting 4 wins. I think we'll struggle to get 3.
Sorry for being negative. Again. I'm just on me arse.