Thanks fella, i've been the docs before, and it's an arduous process. And takes forever, i've tried CBT before and it is a beneficial help.
My problem is i'm a high maintenance twat, and also quite spontaneous, i may have an appointment lets say next Wednesday, but rather than wait to talk about things - i'll get shit faced from here until then, miss the appointment because i'm wankered and don't want anyone to see me in the state i get in.
If i were one of the hollywood A listers, i'd want the stunt in rehab they fork out for, because i honestly think i need 24 hour supervision, while i get back on a balance.
It sounds shit, i sound like a child, but im behaving like one - no self control, no maturity in my decisions, so there'd be no surprise if i had to be treated like one.