More good news yesterday - another clear scan. They will now reduce to four-monthly scans.
This made my day! Excellent!!! Thanks for posting, Imp!
I've been thinking a bit lately. Since my dad passed 8 years ago because of cancer I haven't really let myself cry. I've felt sorrow, pain and been through the classic reaction pattern that comes with losing someone close to you but I've never allowed myself to just let go and have a good cry. My dad never did either and that's probably why I don't allow myself to do it.
Once a month I go to a guy who uses a special Chinese massage technique to keep my lower back in good condition. He's also a healer and despite I've been going for the better part of 4 years we've never really talked about the spiritual side of things. Yesterday however he asked me flat out when the last I cried was and I had to tell him I couldn't remember. He looked at me and asked but you did cry when your dad died, right? I remember crying once but that's about it. He then told me that if I wanted to be able to really love myself and for that matter let my wife and kids get close to me I needed to start crying to get all the locked up emotions out of my system. I've been thinking about what he said and I can see it makes sense but I find it REALLY hard to accept that I "have" to cry to get it out. Really hard!
Reading some of the posts on this page I've realised I better get started. I've decided I'll sit down with the missus and my daughter and watch those Extreme Makeover programs from USA. I've found they are able to make me really emotional and even get a tear in my eyes from time to time but I've never cried over them. Perhaps now is the time to start learning how to cry...
Thank you all for sharing these rather personal things in here. I hate it when I see this thread pop in when I press the "New replies" button but I love the compassion shown in here.
To all who those affected in some way by this terrible disease my thoughts are with you.
Thomas