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The Boozer / Re: Struggling with depression
« Last post by Kenny's Jacket on Today at 12:22:49 pm »Didn’t know where to post this but here seemed good, please advise if I need to move mods:
So today was a big day for me in terms of a long term battle with anxiety and occasional depression. After 12/13 years I posted to RAWK. I joined in 2011 full of piss and vinegar and the hope of being part of a community but my social anxiety quickly got the better of me. “What if I’m posting rubbish”, “what if I’m wrong”, “what if a poster I like takes issue with something I say”. I basically scared myself off and have lurked reading and enjoying for all these years. When I had my first severe depression bout one of my goals with my psychologist was to come back here and post again. In a way to put myself out there and take risks in a way I had previously avoided. Though in reality they aren’t really risks but rather irrational fears as (in my experience at least) anxiety and depression were based on. I’ve been ok a few years now and have the ability to mitigate and control my anxiety but I still avoided posting here. Not sure why. Today I did and though a small thing it feels like a load off. It wasn’t the most insightful or eloquent post but I made it and that felt great.
Now for the actual reason for this post: though none of you know me I have lurked on these boards for over a decade and feel like I know so many of you. The posts, the arguments, the jokes, the memes have all helped me immensely over the years to engage with Liverpool in a way that is difficult sometimes (I moved to Australia 15 years ago. I could name so many of you who have made subtle assistances in my mood, understanding of issue and events and mindfulness. Too many to thank individually so I will just say a large THANK YOU and hope you will forgive the impersonality of this.
Welcome aboard, are you in the Oil industry by any chance (Perth)?