Firstly, wonderful news Socratease. Truly hope the improvement continues!
I’ve been a lurker on RAWK for the best part of 10 years. Never in a million years thought my first post would be in the Cancer thread, but I find myself spending more time here than any other thread unfortunately. I've been hovering over the 'post reply' button for about a week, so here goes...
Last August my wife and I noticed our 18 month old daughter was walking with a hunch/slouch. We took her to the docs, with what we were hoping was a bit of a stiff/sore neck. An MRI found a tumor at the top of her spinal cord. Given the location, high risk surgery to remove the tumor was the only option.
We were told the risks included her losing function of her body, ability to breathe on her own, or even not making it out of the surgery. About a week later she went in to surgery, where they were forced to attempt to take a biopsy rather than debulk/remove the tumor, due to the location. She was forced into an induced coma for a week following that but deteriorated quickly. She had lost all function and ability to breathe, and we were waiting for a miracle. This did not come, and we had to make the heart breaking decision to turn off life support after the tumor had become inflamed from the surgery and was cutting off circulation to her brain. Within 3 weeks we went from having a happy little toddler to having our world rocked.
About a week before all this started, my wife and I found out we were pregnant with our second. Mixed emotions to say the least. Lucas Jordan was born 3 weeks ago, but to be honest I've found the grief of losing our daughter has come back and hit harder than ever, and it’s been a struggle bonding with the little guy.
It doesn’t help that for the last six months, it’s no exaggeration for me to say that the only thing that has taken my mind off it for just 90 minutes has been watching Liverpool. Genuinely don’t know how I would have got through this period without them. I know there are obviously far more important things in life, but I'm really hoping the footy comes back soon and Liverpool can get this long overdue title! I’m 31 so have waited my whole life for this and need this extra boost after the year we’ve had.
I haven’t really spoken to anybody in depth about the traumatic last 6 months, but given the world now and COVID, I figure getting it off my chest here where I spend a significant amount of time is as good a place as any.