I'm gay. We have plenty of other LGBT people here on RAWK. Lots of us are regular match-goers. This is something we talk about occasionally. It's something that I think is an important issue, and I think that my views would be echoed to some degree by most other LGBT supporters.
Firstly, there ARE out gay footballers currently playing professionally in England. Several. They are all women.
It is the men's game that lags behind, but not only in football, in other sport too.
So why is that? Is it because men must have this perception of macho-manliness and without it they cannot compete at the highest level of sport? Maybe a little bit. But certainly in Western society things have moved on. You check the social media accounts of many top players these days and they're hardly the stereotypical macho-man image of years gone by. What's the other thing that differentiates male sport to female sport, then?
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You watch that Gareth Thomas documentary, as I did, and you listen to what those in the higher echelons of the football world tell us, and they'd have you believe that people don't come out because of us. Because we, as supporters, would give them grief. I do not buy that. I don't buy that because I've been going to the games regularly for well over 15 years, and I can count on one hand the number of times I've heard or seen something homophobic. In FIFTEEN YEARS.
"Oh but look at how many times football fans say faggot on Twitter" says Gareth Thomas... as if the trolls aren't trolling rugby players, politicians, musicians, rappers, singers, actors, or literally anyone. No. Fuck right off with that narrative. That's what your FA and your Premier Leagues and your PFAs and your UEFAs and your FIFAs want you to believe. We're just animals. Can't be trusted with a beer in view of the pitch, let alone with a homosexual in the game.
In completely unrelated news, the next World Cups will be in Russia and Qatar. And no money exchanged hands to enable this to happen. Also completely unrelated that most major clubs in the world played pre season friendlies in countries with less than stellar records on gay rights over the last 5 years. Many of the world's biggest clubs are sponsored by organisations that do a lot of business in countries where being gay is not accepted. In this global football world, where commercial success is key and billions are spent on football and in football and using football as the advertising tool, what do you think is the main reason players don't come out? No really?
Liverpool FC were part of the Pride parade in Liverpool earlier this year. Again. About the 5th year running now. There was a lot of positivity about it locally. Check Twitter, and you'll see the global consequences of it. And you can extrapolate that to what might happen to any player that came out. Is that player bothered by Twitter? I very much doubt it. Are his sponsors worried that he can no longer be used on that ad campaign in the Middle East or parts of Asia? I think there's a reasonable chance it's how they think.
So yeah, back to that Gareth Thomas documentary. In it you had people like Graham Taylor and Peter Scudamore in their ivory towers telling us that players don't want to come out because we - the fans - are scum. It's not them! What else can they do?! The fans are just awful! Yes they've just made millions from deals in Country That Hates Gays, but it's DEFINITELY not within their remit to help gay players live an open and honest life, is it? Not when you've got uneducated and brutal twats like us in the stadia.
I was disappointed in that because I think Gareth Thomas bought their lie a bit. Amal Fashanu saw through it, and she alluded repeatedly to the authorities being one of the problems, but they didn't really press any of them on it. And why would they when there's an easy target there already. The much maligned football supporter. The working classes.
I love Gareth Thomas to bits, by the way. I think he's been exceptionally brave, and anyone who has read his story will know what an enormous toll hiding his sexuality took on him and his health. Likewise Nigel Owens. And when people in here say things like "why do they need to come out though?" and "I think they don't want to because of the circus" and shit like that, then read their stories, and try to understand that despite YOU thinking that staying in the closet is the easy option, try to understand that hiding a massive part of yourself is a burden so much heavier and so much harder than I can put into words. You need only to see the incidence of mental health issues in the LGBT community in comparison to the straight population to see the toll it takes pretty clearly.
I say that from the privileged position of someone whose family and friends accept them unconditionally. But despite that it took me years and years to come out. I sympathise entirely with the footballer that doesn't want the circus. I didn't either. The idea of everyone talking about me? God. Kill me. I can't begin to think how awful that would be. I don't choose my words there lightly. That's how it feels. Kill me. But then the alternative is killing you too. Slowly suffocating you and your right to a life. Can't go on a date without that paranoia that someone will see. Can't flirt with that person you've got a massive crush on in case someone finds out. Can't find the courage to make the move because then people might KNOW and your life might be ruined. So you live a life alone and in secrecy and in loneliness and in fear and in lies. And then something happens and you realise you can't keep doing it because not being able to live your life as who you really are is just really, really shit. I mean, really shit. Aside from not being able to kiss and be kissed or love and be loved, living a lie is fucking awful. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. And I am SURE there are footballers out there who are thinking to themselves that it's fine and they can put up with it until they retire. Because they've got no-one on their side saying "do you know what, it's OK, be who you are, don't waste your life living a lie."
How sad is that? Spending 15 years of your life not being able to date or kiss or fuck without fear?
Is that a life you'd want from the age of 16 to 30? Is that a life conducive to being the best you can be? Is it happy life?
So when you think "why do they need to come out?" well that's why. Because hiding who you are and being unable to live an open life is shit. A million times more shit than people repeatedly referring to you as "the Premier League's first openly gay footballer". I don't want a flag bearer or any shit like that. I just believe that everyone should have a right to live their life openly and honestly, and it's is fucking obvious that male gay/bi professional footballers despite the rest of their privilege, do not have that particular one. And it's not because people might be mean to them. Certainly not in most of Western Europe. It's because other people's money is at stake.