Single life - Christ it can be fun but it's brutal too! Sorry for long post, kinda some history, some advice for those coming out of long term relationships and after some advice.
Split with someone I'd been with for 6 years last Sept, owned a house together, a horse sized dog, speaking often of marriage and kids when we sold the house we were in and moved somewhere which would be more permanent. We had some issues, mostly relating to an illness she got 6 months after we started going out which had some lasting effects and where we were living as that was away from her family and her/our group of friends (we were sorting that one by moving). Other than that it was pretty great - so was unexpected when she turned round one day and said she wanted it to end. After an hour of chatting I went for a drive to clear my head for an hour or so and came back to find her there with two friends taking ALL her shit. Not a bag for a few nights, literally all her stuff. So within 3 hours went from talking to me normally to out the house fully!
Took me a while to sort myself after that, not helped that for the next 4 or 5 months we texted regularly and saw each other a fair bit. Wasn't just me chasing trying to make it work either, as a lot of the contact was initiated from her side too.
Got to Feb this year and one of my mates and his missus (who used to be her best friend but drifted apart for other reasons) gave my head a wobble for me and made me realise I was literally hanging on and she was keeping me dangling. Took back a bit of control for myself, told her she either wants to give this a try or I cut off all contact and she fucks off. The latter happened, and it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders and I kicked myself for not doing it much much sooner.
So, and the main reason for posting... for anyone going through something similar now, trust me, don't let it drag on and on. I'm all for fighting to make a relationship work, as shit does happen and people do make mistakes, but don't let someone take control of your own life and don't just dangle about chasing.
Anyway, onto the single part... so went out a week after telling her to fuck off and got a bit of a much needed ego boost in the form of attention from two 23yr olds (I'm 31). I'm not short of confidence, but being fucked about by a girl for the previous 5 or so months it was nice to get some attention. Was warned off one as apparently was a bit of a headcase, but then she had some other redeeming qualities (
), but then turned out she was a bit of one! The other I got close to pretty fast, mainly as we had absolutely loads in common, texting constantly for about 2 months, seeing each other a fair amount during that time (she even invited me to her Mum's bday meal out). She'd not long split with someone too, so we both happily agreed to just take it (fairly!) slow. She then turned round about a month ago and decided that was it and cut off all contact. Brutal
Seen her out at the weekend and she just blanked me, thankfully I'd been out happily drinking in the sun all day so wasn't that arsed
So now for some advice - met a girl over the weekend who I've known since I got with my ex.... because she was one of her friends. They aren't in the same friend group now, so aren't really friends anymore. Since I first met her we've always had a really flirty friendship (harmless), her ex-fella hated me because of it but then I thought he was a prick anyway (and turned out he really was), and he apparently (didn't know this until this weekend) banned her from speaking to me!
After spending most of Monday out together in the same group, we ended up drinking and chatting on our own for a good couple of hours, in fact I think it was for well over 3 hours but it was effortless convo, and we ended up staying behind to carry on when people moved on somewhere else. She started out thinking it probably wouldn't be a good idea if it went anywhere but think by the end of it, after realising how well we get on and how much we have in common, that there could be something there. Left the ball in her court by giving her my number and not taking hers - told her to think it over and contact me if she wants to (nothing yet
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So am I playing with fire here? Even if she doesn't text this time we're both out for a mate's 30th in a few weeks and know we'll end up drawn to each other again.