Ill do my best. I cant say ill beat it as i dont know, what i do know is ill try my hardest. Yes, its a new start, just going to be weird. Ive things in place to help after detox and plans etc. Ive got track days planned , guitar to get back into in a serious way etc. Exercise is difficult for me as my knees are a bit knackered and cant take too much abuse. Trying to get my knee down in jeans on the bike dont help
I do have things i want to do, but i have to be off the booze first. Still awaiting test results about my insides etc. Ive not heard owt so cant be too bad ( dont take that comment the wrong way ) . When i hear ill let u know.
Its got to a point where things on my adonis-like body are refusing to work properly and its pissing me off. I wish i could remember what it was like when i was tee-total before. I remember being able to sleep properly and as soon as my eyes opened i was out of bed in a flash, in the bathroom to wash, shave, brush my beautiful white pearlers, squeeze out a cheeky poo and go get laid. Now its Uhhgggggggggg another day has graced me with its presence, fuck off. Time to change that i reckon. It sounds harsh but im glad my Dad isnt here to see the state im in as he would bash my fucking balls in. Then again, they dont work now either so no great loss
I need to get back to 6-8 hrs of guitar a day, get me a pet to argue with , start cooking PROPER food. Im eating better now but i mean ' cook ' food as opposed to lobbing shit in water,boiling it and smashing a jar of Tabasco over its head. I might try and find another hobby. I used to like knitting but thats a bit poncy now, i like making models ( fnarr fnarr ) and riding me bike. I need to find something creative to try. I dont watch many films until im in bed, even then i flick through all the gory parts till i get to the gratuitous sex scene and fire off a few knuckle children then go to sleep, so im no film buff. I do like to be active with my hands, stop sniggering at the back, so something i can do with them that has an end result would be ideal.
Morning ramble over, this is your captain speaking, thank you for flying SHF airlines and i hope you enjoyed your flight. The weather is 31 degrees with a light breeze. As you alight from the aircraft please take care on the walkway as you make your way to the terminal. Have a lovely holiday and hope to see you on the return flight back to my little world. Now get the fuck off my plane, the bars open and the stewardesses are as fit as fook.