Just popped in to see if Carl is okay and also to thank Rigga for posting that Primal Scream vid.
That's the first time I have smiled in two days - thanks.
In other news, I'm fighting the urge to drown in vodka - two things are stopping me:
1) it costs an arm and a leg here
2) reading this thread acts as deterrent
To anyone else out there fighting the same urge, life might seem shit now and you might think it'll look better through the bottom of an empty glass, but you have to admit that the day after, life still might seem like shit, you'll be worse off financially and you'll feel as rough as arseholes...
Better to tackle the reasons for why life is shit, rather than contributing to why.
Pious sanctimony it might seem, but this is very, very personal testimony.
Off to bed now. At 6pm. On a Friday. Call it a preventative measure.....
No worries, Jim.
I'd like to go against the grain in this thread for a minute. I know it's not a popular opinion, but I want to instill some hope.
For everything a reason.
You drink because you body/mind is telling you to. You also enjoy a drink.
I've always wondered (and maybe this will resonate with some in here) why, the day after a good bingey night out, it always seems to be sunny. Not just warm, but
really bright. It's true you won't find the answers in the bottom of the glass. But what if, the things you want/need/believe when in the night and off your nut, are there waiting for you in the morning? Everything's out of your mind, except you and the things you perceive to be wrong with your life. As far as anyone else can see, apart from those in the pub, you're not there - you don't exist. You know you exist; you're thinking, moving, drinking. As far as you can see, they don't exist either. So why not imagine something good for yourself?
I look at Hunter Thompson. He took what he wanted, when he wanted. He decided early on that he'd kill himself one day, so one day he did. He didn't believe in 'Alcoholism', or any other disease, therefore nothing could kill him until he killed himself, when he decided he'd had enough fun.
Why do (some?) AA groups instill religion into their members? Because Jesus told his disciples when he was going to die. And that's when he died. Unfortunately, shit happens and they stop believing in Jesus, which keeps the AA going. If you believe in yourself, and take it steady (slowly, slowly, catchy monkey), then no amount of shit happening can destroy your belief. (If you believe in everything, and nothing, maybe shit will stop happening altogether).
I'm looking at life like this - If I see someone doing something, I can do it (Like yosser Hughes
). Maybe I don't have the physical attributes to do some things I see, but I
could do them. I also know that I'm not a special case. Anything I can do, you can do.
Don't be afraid of having the things you want. If you call yourself an alcoholic, that's what you'll be.
Dig the tunes as well!
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