Well over a year now has passed since my little girl was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma cancer
When we got that news it didn't turn my life upside down, it blew it to smithereens
She went through treatments, none of which worked. Chemo didn't shrink her tumor which was wrapped around hear heart, aorta and other organs
Anyway, with no other choice left, she was taken for life threatening surgery in October, where we were told it was a 50/50 chance of survival, and way less that for the operation to be considered a success. i.e. the tumor removed fully
She was 13 months when diagnosed
Now, she's in remission
Tumor was successfully removed after a 13 hour operation in Southampton by a genius of a man, and a complete and utter gentleman at that
Yeah she lost a kidney and her adrenal glands and will be on medication forever - but I'll take that any day compared to the alternative
Tomorrow we go back in for more scans
The missus is bricking it as she feels our little girl doesn't seem right
But I'm sure that she will remain in the clear
Out to fuck cancer, you're not coming into my little girls life again
Anyone out there going though this hateful condition of Cancer, stay strong, fight it. Release the child in you if you like. What I mean by that is, they know no other way but to carry on as normal. If you can do that, do it. Fight it with your mind as well as your body
I found it surprisingly ok to deal with at the time, probably because my daughter didnt know any better and I had to stay strong. Bur the severity of it hits you when life goes back to "normal" (whatever that is)
Some things about me that changed after this past year:
1) I've always been a patient person, but I can't bite my tongue anymore when it comes to idiots, small minded or ignorant people. Saturday night a little jumped up scumbag got lippy with my sister in law at a taxi queue for no reason whatsoever. He was standing at the car door then mouthing off, normally I'd ignore this, but I just went over and shoved him into the car and told him to shut his f**king mouth. His face was priceless though
2) I don't take my football that seriously anymore.
3) I hate things like Facebook. I'm probably alone here but I cant stand the "look at my perfect life" and the "I cant go anywhere without telling facebook" attitude of some, not all, people on it. They are enough to put me off
I've been reading a little on these pages
Some of the attitude that people have is heart warming to say the least
Shelovesyou good luck with your wedding by the way :-)