Thanks for your reply, after reading what you say and again i'm not trying to be smart or facetious but you say you had to pay bills, so what I'm trying to say is do you really think you were an addict or was it more of a bad habit? the reason I ask is my stepdad used to gamble on the horses, and i used to be stuck outside in his work van for hours, he would win hundreds at a time, and within winning it within a fews hours he had lost the lot, he is pensioner now but still has the odd flutter, so im not sure whether an addict is say a person who stops at nothing, although at times my mum was in tears after he had gambled all her housekeeping.
Chasing the dream.....how are you going to manage to pay the bills now?
I think I said in my first post in this thread that I'm ashamed of my actions because I like to think of myself as relatively intelligent. I suppose there is still a fraction of sense in me, in that I stop before I lose every penny, so I can still pay my bills.
I'm quite well organised, I've got a spreadsheet that details all of my direct debits and the dates they're due, so I always know what is coming out and when. Usually, what I do is, when I get my student loan, I put enough in my 'bill acount' and leave it there to pay off my bills.
What I have found this year is I have done that, but once I've lost my other money, money that is there for me to do what I want with (go out/go to the match/have a bet etc) that I've gone to my bill account. I've always made sure that the bare minimum is left in order to get through the next week, so that's something I suppose, but it's the inability to stop myself from using money that I know I shouldn't.
I think maybe it is my, admittedly very small, amount of common sense that doesn't see my account as having £25 in it now, it sees it as already at £0, because if I lost that £25, my problems would get so much worse.
Maybe you're right, maybe I'm not addicted. They say you shouldn't gamble more than you can afford to lose, and I always make sure I've got enough to pay my bills, so I guess I'm not losing more than I can afford to, but it's really no way to live - week to week, just having enough to scrape the bills. Granted, if I carried on like this forever, things wouldn't get worse, but I'd never have anything. My credit card is maxed, I've got an £1800 overdraft, I owe my mum £3k, my girlfriend is paying me monthly installments to help me get back on my feet. It all adds up and it's all down to gambling.
Bad habit or addiction, it can't carry on.